I am so sorry to hear about your injury and your pain. I made a friend during my stay at an in patient physical therapy facility who had a really bad spinal cord injury. He too had a lot of metal and screws in his body. I also witness the very sad circumstance of being him being in so much pain and they can’t do much for it. The scrutiny in the media and medical field about drug addicts is insane. Its ridiculous considering what you two have been through… that is the least of your worries. He was a partial quadriplegic. He wasn’t in the position of being a dealer or an addict truly. I am sorry though.
I would love to be your friend, I could use more of them myself. This injury that I’ve been dealing with has left me with few friends as well. I have some, they just don’t have the time or resources to help or be around as much as I would like. They also, unfortunately, do not understand chronic pain. The friend that I have been staying with constantly critiques me about my situation and is constantly demanding I do better. ITs sad really if they don’t understand they don’t understand.
Also I hear you, most people in our positions would do some pretty drastic stuff to help the pain. It’s amazing to me what severe chronic pain can do to a body.I went from having a wonderful high pain tolerance b being a collegiate athlete. I had no clue the body could sustain this much pain for this long.
Hope to hear from you soon!